How Do I Handle This??

Tomorrow is my last day at the dubb. How do I react to this? Do I jump around because I can't believe I actually made it this far... Or do I bawl because I'll never be able to call this place home again? All the memories shared here. All the fun times.. How do I say good-bye to all the memories?

This is supposed to be a time of celebration and junk but I jus dont know if I can. Celebrate that is.

I guess I'm just gonna take tomorrow one minute at a time and see how that goes. Ima clean out the rest of my locker, say my goodbyes and then I'll walk out of there being a student for the last time.

This is different. And difficult. And awkward.

Peace and love and tornness
Al.

To Matthew.

Im really tired of your complaining. If you dont like something that is happening in your life, then change it. You are 18, you have a job, and you are SO independent and BETTER than everyone else. So just move out. Get your own place. Your own car. New friends. because apparently we arent good enough be cause we have flaws. But guess what. While you are goin on and on and on about how much your life sucks, you fail to see that ours arent any better. I have tried to listen to you. But all you are is negative. If you cant see ANYTHING good in your life, then what would be the sense in us helping you. If you cant help yourself even the slightest, then you have more problems then just us "listening" will help. And also when you said how the people that stay here are pathetic and cant make it anywhere else, you were SO WRONG!!! It takes more balls to live here than anywhere else. Do you know how hard it is to find a decent job around here? And you usually have to get one in Des Moines and do you know how much it costs to drive up there everyday. Let alone how much it costs to buy an acre of land down here, ON TOP OF a house payment, and car payment and taxes and everything else. So before you go running your mouth about shit you have no idea what you are talking about just because you dont have enough social skills to make friends around here.

And you arent a very good christian at all if you cant forgive us or whatever you need to do. But all you do is sit there on your high horse and look down upon all of us like we are scum on the bottom of your expensive ass shoes that you walked yourself here in. Be a Godly man and pray. Isnt that what you are supposed to do in times of adversity and times of fortune.

And not to mention, Carrie let you stay at her house. How is that not caring????????

So what I'm getting at it is. Suck it up. Get over it. Or move on. Because hate to tell you, but you are down here in this community, so by your own standards, that makes YOU pathetic.

go on, get offended.

peace and love.
al.

is this going to mess you up?

im typing on this side.

just call me a rebel.

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oh yea!!

so i like this boy. 

lets call him frank.

frank. yeah. he's a frank.

ok so i like frank.

and he is super cute and nice and loving and funny and  just so everything that i love.  

but it is getting frustrating. he is against dating  right now. bleh.

and we talk and text and junk and hes so nice to me and he makes me laugh and . ugh

see what i mean?

frustrating. 

as hell.

ugh. 

and im tired of being single. 

because lois is always squeeling and stuff when she gets texts from josh and i feel like she is rubbing it in my face that she has a boyfriend and i dont. and i know she isnt  meaning to but still. i wish she would tone it down. she makes me feel like crap because he makes her feel so happy any crap. ugh

whatever. 

oh well.

and my mom is really fucking pissing me off. im ready to move the fuck out.

fuck her and my dad. 

screw them all. 

over and over and over again.

screw this whole place.

peace and love.

al.