Hey yall. I am all moved in now and settled in to what is now my home. Today was a good day until the crew had to leave. I was good when Mel hugged me but then Cam came up and I gave him his flower from prom and said "dont forget me" and I made myself friggin cry. All will be well though. Tonight was a great night. We were going to just hang out in our dorm all night but then some of our roommate's friends came over and talked us into going out. So, I met so many people that I dont even remember their names. They were trying to find a party but I was content with just walking around socializing. I made a really good friend. Her name is Lexe (lexi) and she loves penguins too!!!!!:)
so all in all a good night.
now im going to go to bed because i have shit to do tomorrow!
night all.
peace and love.
al.
staring down the barrel of a loaded gun:)
Monday, August 27, 2012
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Holding Out For A Hero
Where have all the good men gone and where are all the gods? Where's the street-wise Hercules to fight the rising odds? Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed? Late at night I toss and I turn and I dream of what I need.. I NEED A HERO.
Hello All. Sorry about that tad bit of song but that is one of the audition pieces that I have to sing when I try out for the vocal jazz and show choir at ICCC. Im t-e-r-r-i-f-i-e-d! Like shaking in my imaginary cowgirl boots, terrified. I know that people down here are all like "Oh, but Alex you are so awesome. You are like a singing goddess" *exaggeration* but you get my point. What if I go up there and everyone is all Glee, and I'm one of those people that try out for American Idol that the judges laugh at. I don't want to be laughed at.
I'm also afraid for my theatre audition but a little less scared. I'm still worried that since I was a big fish in a small pond when it came to acting here, that I'm going to be a gold fish in Lake Erie just hoping to survive.
Anyhoo, ignore my worries. I'm sure everything will turn out okay.
I'm freaking stoked to move away. I'm not ready for all of us to be so far away from each other though. I like the fact that I can be like "Hey, do you want to come over" and whoever is like "yeah, be there in ten".
Fact: I WILL make friends in college. I am lovable. I am nice. I am caring. I am a GREAT fricking friend.
So this girl said something to me last night and it has been bothering me since she said it. It wasn't anything bad. Actually it was really nice but I'll just tell you what she said. Lois and I were at this party/bonfire and we were talking to this girl and Lois and her were both talking about their boyfriends and I said something along the lines of "Oh, yeah, I'll just text my boyfriend too.... OH WAIT!!" And this girl was like "Wait you dont have a boyfriend??" and I was like "No, ma'am." and she said "How can that be, you are so nice!!"
I could have cried. I am aware of how nice I am. But I am also aware of how big I am. And sometimes that is a bigger deal breaker than my niceness. The reason it has been bothering me is because it shouldn't be that way. I am nice! I deserve to have a guy look at me and say she has a beautiful personality.
You wanna know something though. That statement she made, made me feel the best I have felt in a loooong time. Screw boys. Screw judgmental bitches. I am one damn awesome person, if you cant handle that then you can go eat shit. :)
peace and love.
al.
Hello All. Sorry about that tad bit of song but that is one of the audition pieces that I have to sing when I try out for the vocal jazz and show choir at ICCC. Im t-e-r-r-i-f-i-e-d! Like shaking in my imaginary cowgirl boots, terrified. I know that people down here are all like "Oh, but Alex you are so awesome. You are like a singing goddess" *exaggeration* but you get my point. What if I go up there and everyone is all Glee, and I'm one of those people that try out for American Idol that the judges laugh at. I don't want to be laughed at.
I'm also afraid for my theatre audition but a little less scared. I'm still worried that since I was a big fish in a small pond when it came to acting here, that I'm going to be a gold fish in Lake Erie just hoping to survive.
Anyhoo, ignore my worries. I'm sure everything will turn out okay.
I'm freaking stoked to move away. I'm not ready for all of us to be so far away from each other though. I like the fact that I can be like "Hey, do you want to come over" and whoever is like "yeah, be there in ten".
Fact: I WILL make friends in college. I am lovable. I am nice. I am caring. I am a GREAT fricking friend.
So this girl said something to me last night and it has been bothering me since she said it. It wasn't anything bad. Actually it was really nice but I'll just tell you what she said. Lois and I were at this party/bonfire and we were talking to this girl and Lois and her were both talking about their boyfriends and I said something along the lines of "Oh, yeah, I'll just text my boyfriend too.... OH WAIT!!" And this girl was like "Wait you dont have a boyfriend??" and I was like "No, ma'am." and she said "How can that be, you are so nice!!"
I could have cried. I am aware of how nice I am. But I am also aware of how big I am. And sometimes that is a bigger deal breaker than my niceness. The reason it has been bothering me is because it shouldn't be that way. I am nice! I deserve to have a guy look at me and say she has a beautiful personality.
You wanna know something though. That statement she made, made me feel the best I have felt in a loooong time. Screw boys. Screw judgmental bitches. I am one damn awesome person, if you cant handle that then you can go eat shit. :)
peace and love.
al.
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