guuueeeezzzz!!!! So my sister just asked me to be her Maid of Honor!! yay!! Right? Yes, I am excited. I didnt get to be a part of Andy's so being MOH for Andrea's is like a dream come true. I get to plan things and be in charge of things and buy a new pretty dress!!!
Only, there is one problem. The wedding is planned for September 21, 2014. That is school time. I plan on going to school in Washington. How the hell am I supposed to attend bridal showers, bachelorette parties and go dress shopping and all this other stuff if I'm going to be 30 hours away. That is four hundred dollars every time I want to fly or 4 thousand miles I would have to put on my car if I were to drive home and back.
WHAT DO I DO?????????????
I cant put my life on hold for this. I need to get out there and do my craft and keep going to school. But I need to attend all the stuff for my sister's wedding.
I need help.
peace love and stuff.
al.
staring down the barrel of a loaded gun:)
Sunday, September 22, 2013
Monday, September 9, 2013
I Drink A Glass Of Water Before I Go To Bed At Night.
"i hope you understand i have been waiting to leave ever since i learned that there are roads willing to take me any where i want to go"
I need to leave. I have to get away from Iowa. It has to be done. There isnt anything in Iowa big enough for what I need to accomplish in my life. I need theatre. I live for it. Its what keeps me going sometimes. Knowing that I can walk on stage and become a totally different person and not have to be me for a short period of time. I breath to entertain people. To make people laugh is what brings true joy to my life. I can't find what I'm looking for in the Hawkeye state. If I were Spencer, I would do the same thing she is doing. Staying right where she knows she belongs.
I dont know where I belong. I havent found that out yet. All I know is that I'm going to have to move far away to find it. My soul needs to wander. My feet need to walk where they dont know where they are going. My eyes need to see things that makes me never want to blink again. Corn is not that sight. Mountains? Maybe. Skyscrapers? Possibly. The Ocean? Sure.
This is for sure. I need to go.
This is also for sure: This scares the shit out of me.
peace, love and understanding
al.
I need to leave. I have to get away from Iowa. It has to be done. There isnt anything in Iowa big enough for what I need to accomplish in my life. I need theatre. I live for it. Its what keeps me going sometimes. Knowing that I can walk on stage and become a totally different person and not have to be me for a short period of time. I breath to entertain people. To make people laugh is what brings true joy to my life. I can't find what I'm looking for in the Hawkeye state. If I were Spencer, I would do the same thing she is doing. Staying right where she knows she belongs.
I dont know where I belong. I havent found that out yet. All I know is that I'm going to have to move far away to find it. My soul needs to wander. My feet need to walk where they dont know where they are going. My eyes need to see things that makes me never want to blink again. Corn is not that sight. Mountains? Maybe. Skyscrapers? Possibly. The Ocean? Sure.
This is for sure. I need to go.
This is also for sure: This scares the shit out of me.
peace, love and understanding
al.
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