2 more days!!

so i wont be able to blog much in two days. im gonna be outa this class!!!!! woot woot. just semester test is the only thing between me and christmas break:)

right now im sick. i just got sick randomly last night. now my nose is either running or stopped up and my throat hurts!:( and i have a headache. poor me lol.

well idk know what else to write about. ohh yea. madeline came up to me today and was all like, i dont wanna fight anymore and so on and i was like yeah i agree but idk. she said some pretty harsh things and so did i. i dont know if i can just hug that off. like now that i know what she thinks of me and i dont know if i can deal with that. maybe ill talk to her later and tell her my doubts. because she is a good friend. she has helped my through some rough stuff. but i dont know. i dont wanna not be friends but now that i know the truth i just have doubts.

im hungry. hungry. hungry. bah! im super ready for connections. then i can just munch munch munch:)

im kinda not looking forward to christmas in a way. i havent talked to or seen andy at all this year. this is going to the first christmas i havent shared with andy. i miss him. a lot. we used to be best friends pretty much. he was more a friend than a brother. we would go outside and throw the football and talk about things. i miss that. he would call me Buddy and i would call him Andyroo. those were the good ole days. when he wasnt married and he lived at home and we would make radio broadcasts late at night. i remember when he would wake up early to push play on those so those would be the first thing i heard in the morning. and all he knew how to make was frozen pizza and grilled cheese. he came to all of my events and cheer for me the loudest. now its hard to even call him a brother. i dont know who he is anymore.

but thats ok because i have aaron. he is the best big brother ever!! he comes to everything that i do. he shows up at the house randomly just to hang out and watch tv with me. he loves me and he shows it. and i love him too! hes been here for everything. my first car, my sweet 16, my first deer. and hell be here for everything else. i hope he doesnt find a girl because im the only girl in his life that he needs to spoil:)

peace and love
al.